Ready for a new week

Whew....it's been another one of 'those' weeks for me.  Seems like it's been just one situation that hurts to deal with after another.  For me and my sensitive stomach...the stress just kills me.  It causes my poor tummy to act up and it takes forever for it to settle down.

Why does it seem like the 'things' hit you one after another?  Or is it just me? lol  I had something mid-week that threw me for a loop and caused so much hurt.  I wasn't prepared, didn't expect it and was just plain floored.  Honestly I'm still not sure how to work through it....except through lots of prayer!  Thank You God for listening and giving me your input!

Followed that with something the end of the week....and topped it off with something else. Ok, I've had enough....I am ready for a new week.  I'm ready for my tummy to settle down and let me be.  And I'm sure praying that this week is much better than last week.

Sometimes I feel like I just don't fit in anywhere.  I try to think it through, each individual thing/area....and most everything I just don't understand.  I don't know if it's me or what I need to do to change things.  I can't change me....this is how God made me (as long as I'm 'obeying' and in His Will)....and you know the saying "God don't make no junk".  If I'm not in His Will or obeying, then I absolutely want to know that and want to change me in any way that I need to.  All I can do is ask for His wisdom and direction and input....and know that He will give it.

Sometimes I don't know how to deal with or process the hurt.  I have have been hurt so many times by being 'honest' about things and how I feel etc that I tend to freeze up and not say anything.  I'm not sure that's the answer....but yet, what is?  The 'me' in me wants to be so open and honest, all the time and especially with those I'm closest to'....but yet I just can't.  Right now I'm wishing I could.  Because sometimes I just feel so darn alone.  I struggle with someone to talk to about those things that are so deep within me.

Well, enough 'deep' stuff for tonight.  It's supper time.....and then hopefully some crochet time before bed.  I'll put all of this away for now....and just pray!