Some thoughts

I have learned so much this year and came so far.  I have been to the bottom and pulled myself back up.  I have lost and regained.  I have started over....and over...and over.  I'm not always where I want to be but I'm never down for good.  You might or might not know this about me....but I am a very honest, upfront person.  I share bluntfully, I don't have a problem with words when it comes to my feelings, what I'm going through, what I've been through, what I believe in, etc.  A lot of people appreciate this and I get a lot of feedback that is so positive from those that understand, those that can relate, those that need a friend too, etc.  But unfortunately there are those 'others'.  They are the ones that don't understand, don't care to understand, don't want to take the time to get to know the real you, to get to know the real issues...but yet they feel perfectly ok with spouting their negative, bullying, proclaiming nonsense to you.  This will be the one and only time that I address this on my blog.  After all I went through earlier this year I will do things much differently this time.  I have learned that it doesn't matter what you go through or who you are....there are always those that think it's ok, even though they don't know you, to post comments as if they do, comments that are far from helpful, comments that are far from honest and far from the truth.  I've seen it happen to a wonderful friend of mine and dang, if it can happen to her, of course it will happen to me.  But, this time around....I will moderate comments and when one of those not so nice ones comes I will neither answer it nor publish it.  It will be immediately deleted and if the sender can be blocked, they will be.  It's the new me.

You see....you don't write someone that you don't know and say 'I'm not trying to be mean....but you need serious mental help.' Ummm, what part of that is nice?  You don't make comments that you know absolutely nothing about.  Guess what??  I suffer from depression and anxiety!  Telling me I need mental help is no different than telling someone with the flu that they need to see a doctor! How hilarious.

I am a kind, loving person who would do anything for anyone.  So the comment 'you can not treat people like this' really just does not make sense at all.  Again, it made me laugh.

And Lisa?  Yes, it takes a very special person to be my friend.  I have a lot of them.  You? You are not one of them.

And so folks....the new me that has learned so much this year is not going to deal with this stuff, period.  I will not publish any comments that are not polite and kind, will not publish any that are bullying and nasty.  There will be no answering these people.  All such things will be deleted and life will move on.  I might have a lot of needs but I do not need the approval or understanding of such people.  If I sound a little harsh, well I've been through hell to get to the point I'm at and I'm not going back.  They will not drag me back down.

Enough of that.....and now for the rest:
Did you know that today is Suicide Awareness Day?

Please remember those that have fallen to this horrific thing....and keep those in mind that struggle with this.  AND (this is a biggie) don't add junk to someone's life who struggles with this.  Don't post nasty things to them when they already have this to deal with!  Be kind, be loving, THINK.

While I've been pretty quiet as I've worked through so many things lately, I did want to say a huge thank you to each and every one of you that has reached out with a message, an email, a text, a graphic or post to my FB wall, etc.  So many of you.....and I love you all.  You are amazing, thank you for encouraging me when I'm down and struggling.  I don't like these times when they come.  They are like being in the desert with no water, no protection, nothing.....wandering, alone...even when you know your friends are all around. xoxo