why I blog

The blogging world has just exploded....it often seems like everyone is blogging.  Just as there are so many different kinds of people who choose to do this, there are many different kinds of blogs as well.  You can find blogs on almost any topic, geared towards many various groups of people, about someone's life, that teaches, shows off something, full of pictures, is sarcastic in nature and so forth.  Whatever you want to read, it's out there.

I think a lot, maybe even most, blogs have some sort of theme or idea behind them and the writer pretty much sticks to that in all the posts they make.  For example, someone might choose to write stories about their family, or they post pictures of whatever craft they make, or they write inspirational blogs to teach and so forth.

My blog is somewhat different, reflecting me.  I will be the first to admit that my blog is sort of all over the place. Yes I have one that I put crocheting on.  For me that doesn't mean that I won't post about crocheting on my main blog though. Keeps you guessing lol.  But on my main blog....you will find all kinds of things.  Sometimes it might be about my family, or my crafts, or something funny, or a picture or graphic.  But what is more likely for you to find is that I write about things that are personal, things that are near and dear to my heart....important things, at least important to me.

One things that I absolutely believe is that I go through things in order to show others that might go through them that they are not alone and there is someone that understands and to help others in any way that I can.  I believe that the only way I can do that is to be completely honest and totally transparent in everything about my life.....which I am.  I'm really open and I'm not afraid to speak up.  I have been through so many things in my life, more than more people can really understand.....some I've shared and some I haven't yet....but probably will in time.  God brings me through them for a reason and if I don't step up and do/say what I think that God wants me to then I'm failing, and in a big way.  It's my 'duty'.

For that reason I lay myself out for everyone to see.  I get a lot of flack from people.....but on the other hand....I get so much more encouragement and thankfulness for what I do.  Let me say that the good outweighs the bad so much.  I would rather reach 1 person and alienate 10 than to make 10 of those that don't like what I do happy and alienate the one.  I believe God is blessed when I do what He's called me to do.

And I do believe that this is a calling from God.  There isn't a lot I can do, esp with my depression, anxiety, etc.....but I can use my words.  That's easy for me and I will do that gladly.  This I find much easier.  Each of us have different talents and not many are a like.  I'm glad to claim this one as mine.  Thank You God.

Sometimes I blog often and sometimes I go a period of time between posting.  Sometimes it's easier than others.  There are times when I want to post about my family.....something that happened, something funny, a picture, etc.  But more often it is something that can be considered somewhat controversial....or as some have put it being a drama queen.  At those times it is something that people are caught off guard about it, that they don't expect.....and very often don't understand and don't like....maybe because it hits too close to home.

When I'm going to blog, it's sometimes a long process for me if it is something serious, etc.  I have an idea and usually it is something small.  Many things could bring it up.  I have to spend some thinking and praying about it.  Then I wait on God.  Sometimes I want to post, but He just doesn't give me what I need to blog right away.  I always wait on Him.  I just can't blog with out the words from Him.  It may sound silly but that's how it is for me.  Often I find myself getting ready to go to blogger to write but it's just not there......and so I wait....I wait until whenever.

Blogging is never, for me, about being a drama queen, it is not about growing up, being an adult or needing a shrink.....it is always about bring light to the those issues that need to be brought up, that need to be talked about, that others shrink away from.  You see....when people don't talk about the things they are going through then there is no way for them to show others that they are not a lone.  And I guarantee that if you are going through something, so is someone else.  And most people really need to know that there is someone else that really understand and will be there for them.  I want to be that person....at least in the areas of things I've went through.  I know I can.  God has used me in the past and I know He will use me in the present and in the future.  It's my calling.  It's the reason I've gone through what I have.

I will continue to blog.  I will blog when I feel that it's right.  Sometimes it will be day after day and sometimes there will be times of silence between the blogging.  It just depends.  And along with posting the every day this and that, and despite the negativity and so forth that I get at times, many times (shall I say most of the time) I blog it will be about the urgent, serious, important, controversial issues.  Because that is what life is about.  Not necessarily the happy, oh so wonderful things.....but the down dirty, hard to talk about things.

That's me....it's how I am, it's how I feel and it's what I believe in.  And as long as I continue to reach people and it's God's Will, I will continue.  Call me names, put me down, say what you will......my God is bigger.....and you don't have to read my words.

God bless and to those I reach.....you bless me when you respond, when you write me back.  Need me?  I'm here!!!